
When the opportunity arose for me to attend the WIT conference, I accepted almost immediately! My reasoning was that it would be good to get away for awhile and relax a bit at a nice weekend retreat. I clearly did not foresee what was really going to happen. My time at WIT was rejuvenating and refreshing, but God dealt with me in a far more direct, real, and powerful way than I expected. He used the numerous powerful truths presented at the conference to speak straight through to my heart.
It did not take much time for me to realize that I was not open, not broken, and definitely not free. I was self-centered. I believed so many lies, had so much pride, was hiding my sin, and did not truly love God in the way that I should. My focus was completely self-centered. I spent so much time thinking about myself and my problems. Instead of looking to Jesus with true repentance, I would self-condemn and bemoan my many failures. I was highly self-focused, always watching out for myself, and essentially viewed demonstrations of meekness and humility as signs of weakness. I was not open with my authorities about my sin. I claimed that God and I “were not speaking to each other,” and deep down, I felt that our lack of communication was His fault.
The Lord wasted no time in using the messages presented at the conference to speak straight to me on these many issues that so desperately needed to be resolved. One thing He showed me right away was I should not have such a huge focus on myself. In stead of being so self-centered, I should instead have my life centered in and around Him! I am nothing without Him, and I am no longer my own, but bought with the blood of Christ. He rightfully owns every part of me. I should live and abide in His presence, and have thoughts of Him ever before me. I felt strongly convicted over concealing some sin from my parents, and at the Spirit’s leading and the godly counsel and encouragement of some other young women attending the conference, I chose to confess the sin and become “open and broken” in all of my relationships. God also revealed to me that He was ready to speak with and have direct, unbroken communion with me at all times. It was because of my decisions to refuse to be open and give my all to Him that we weren’t communicating. It was my distorted view of God that held me back from completely opening myself up to Him. It was not His fault at all, but entirely my own.
Our Heavenly Father greatly desires to have a deep, loving, rich relationship with each one of us, but that relationship cannot reach its potential until we choose to hold nothing back from the Lord. We must claim the blood of Christ and walk daily in Him. We should be continually conforming to His image. When hardships strike and we falter and fail in the way, we must realize that our victory is in Him, and that He alone can free us from bondage, and that freedom comes when we fully surrender our lives to Him, and live daily with a grateful and repentant heart. This is what I have learned during and since the WIT conference, and though I still struggle and fall, I know that I must choose to walk in freedom in Christ, who is my all in all.
Grace Watson – Singles Attendee 2011
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